i can't post photos. left the camera wire/s somewhere, i think i lost them, and now i'm stuck in the attempt to describe things and events rather than just wait for twenty, say thirty, minutes for photos to do that job for me.

went to the plaza this afternoon. i overate again. why is it always that or not eating at all? why can't it be normal.

some kid tried to to take my ice cream, and even alanah the local couldn't persuade him to stop bothering us. he did, finally, after alanah screamed she'll call the police; i realized later i could've just given the ice cream away but i was told: "you can't make everyone happy" and i thought that made sense. like those tao thingies. or something more pop.

i'm scared of going back to manila. there's a fake sense of peace now. i'm sure it will be hell the day i go to work again.