we were supposed to go to a manghuhula in pangasinan tomorrow but she's not texting back according to alanah's lola. we assumed she's having a christmas break too, so the trip's postponed. or canceled. there's one in teachers village, quite expensive but what are you gonna do, right. when i told my mom about the planned trip there was an almost ecstatic sound in her voice, as if finally i believed in something, i had faith or whatever. she said i should try to find out who steals her things.

and as for christmas itself, it's not so bad. it's quite fun actually. after two days of eating just vitamin e pills and drinking water, real food is a relief. there's the pressure of being a nice guest, you eat and smile and act like you've no problems at all, and after some time it becomes natural. there's no acting and no reality, just little fun moments and little sad ones. scared of the lonely days ahead.

ps. walked on the beach this afternoon. what is it with walking and melodrama. and alanah's cousin's friend works in trend micro. i'd already told everyone i was resigning when we found out we were officemates. sort of. great.